Have you ever missed it? Like felt like you were in the right
place at the right time only to find out you were wrong? Well since we are all
human, I’m sure we can all answer yes to this question, the thing is what do we
do and where do we go once we’ve realized we have missed it. I can recall past times that I thought I had
heard from God and was walking in something so confidently until it was pulled
out from underneath me and I quickly learned that I hadn’t listened to God but
to my own emotions. I find myself in
that same boat today, disappointed in myself that once again I have allowed
myself to be led by my emotions and feelings instead of by the Spirit of God.
Disappointed that it’s because of me that I am in this spot, that I once again
have missed it. It makes me wonder why God would want to continue to speak to
me, why should He keep directing me when in times like these I don’t listen.
Why wouldn’t He want to just give up on me.
This is where some incredibly good news comes in- God will never give up
on us! We are human, striving to grow in the things of God and to be more moved
by the spiritual than the natural but we have not all arrived yet. These missed
times don’t become wasted time but lessons learned. Times that we can draw even
more near to God, repent of our disobedience and get out of our heads and back
into the spirit. I found myself so upset that I hadn’t yielded to what God was
trying to tell me, He knew best and if I had listened to Him I wouldn’t be
where I am now. In the midst of my tears of disappointment I pictured Jesus
looking at me across the room with love and compassion in His eyes telling me
that He’s not done with me, He’s not taking back His plans for my life because
I missed here, and that if I could just realize His love for me, the true depth
of it I wouldn’t stay in the place of disappointment. I found myself wanting to
look down from where I pictured Jesus because I was ashamed, but He lifted my
head and wanted to see my eyes. Us missing it doesn’t make God love us less, He
wants to pick us back up, dust us off, love on us and put us right back on
track. When I had missed it in the past
this one particular time God had spoke to me one day and said “Kayla, it doesn’t
matter if you missed it, or if they missed it, you’re not missing it now
because you are walking in step with Me and I never miss it! You’re moving
forward and it’s your turn, it’s your turn, it’s your turn to rise up and walk
in what I have for you.” You see, we
can’t rise up and walk in what God has for us if our face is to the floor in
despair and disappointment, we’ve got to peel our heads up, stand up and walk! And know that just because you messed up doesn’t mean God is leaving you out on your
own. He’s standing there with open arms
and a forgiving and loving heart. I love that God cares about us so much that
He gives us exactly what we need when we are hurting from our own mess. And for
me yesterday that was John 14:27 in the Amplified “Peace I leave with you; My
[own] peace I now give and bequeath to you. Not as the world gives do I give to
you. Do not let your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. [Stop
allowing yourselves to be agitated and disturbed; and do not permit yourselves
to be fearful and intimidated and cowardly and unsettled.]” That couldn’t have
been more perfect for what I needed at the time, and now I have something to
stand on. If you have missed it, don’t keep your focus on that and stop letting
yourself feel guilty and disappointed. Rather focus on what you do know you
have heard God tell you, go back to the last time that you knew that you knew
He was leading you some direction and go full force towards that. For me, that
is going to Indiana this summer to do an internship with One Mission Society to
work with their anti-human trafficking department. God has blown me away with His confirmation
that that is where I am supposed to be this summer so I have high expectations,
and I know I will be stretched and I’m looking forward to the growth that comes
with that! So now, I’m running with Jehovah full speed towards what He has
asked me to do. The enemy isn’t catching
me in his traps to distract me anymore, so he best move out the way because God
has plans for this girl! And she fully intends on walking in them. His plans
for you are BIG too, even if you have missed it in the past, leave it in the
past, move forward and walk in what God has for you!
Running with
Jehovah,
Kayla Jo
